Friday, April 22, 2011

The first step is a big one...

So this is me back after a very long time of being away from this blog, my life, my friends, my self. In recent months it feels like my entire life has come to a crashing reality, that I for all my togetherness am quite the opposite on the inside.

There was a time in my life when everything I did was for other people either, there were lots of reasons of which I can not remeber now but I do know that for the most part they were not for me and though there were people who did things for me they were few and far between. I know that it may seem as though I am just remembering all the bad things and I some could say quit being a drama queen but those would be the very people who would have been asking many things of people and not being able to return the favour.

Don't get me wrong I have had a great life growing up awesome parents, a sister that I love and kids that I adore and would not change one thing in my past for. I moved here about a year ago wanting to give my girls more options when what really seems to have happened since moving here is I have met the girl friends that I wish I have known all my life. They are the most amazing women and I love every single one of them.

I haven't ever really had the opportunity to ever really open my self up to anyone, I have done that on two occasions in the past couple of weeks and I am so thankfull to have the security and trust with the women in my life to be able to do that for really what is the first time in my life.

I know I have a long way to go to get to where I want to be and many things to share with you all but what one thing I am finally sure of is that I will have sincere support from my girlfriends, and that is an amazing feeling.